This month’s entry is going to be a bit of a ramble because I’ve got so much going on in my head that it’s impossible to separate it all. I’ve signed up once again to participate in camp NaNoWriMo this month and I’ve never been so unprepared. I haven’t written very much since November when I did actual NaNo and even plotting the novella I want to write has been like pulling teeth.
I would love to blame it on my busy personal and social life but I don’t think that’s going to fly. There have been many days and weekends when I could have been writing but instead I chose to garden or watch reruns of Breaking Bad and X-Files. I’m afraid that in the months between the last NaNo session I’ve lost the ability to simply write without editing every single word or sentence or worry about whether I’ve hinted enough at the underlying plot or themes.
I would love to blame it on my work because that area has been quite stressful these past few months but again everything I do is of my own making and there have been days when it’s been really slow and I chose to take long lunches and talk to friends rather than work on my writing.Meanwhile I keep getting notifications from Amazon about new books published by other indie authors. It’s as though the universe is attempting to motivate me but I’m just not getting the message. To make matters worse April 1st clocks over in Australia a day earlier than my US counterparts so I’m going to be writing solo for the better part of a day (thankfully that may now be solved through finding Aussie camp cabin mates!).
The upside of all of the above is that I often feel like this before NaNo and then when the days begin my obsessiveness tends to take over and forces me to write regardless of everything else. Fingers crossed that it'll do that again this time.