I’ve been busily working away the last couple of
months on the final touches for my YA dystopian novel. It’s been a bit
of a whirlwind time of final edits, choosing my cover and having the
formatting done. Although it’s been an exciting
ride I can’t help but feel the anxiety starting to build as I get
closer and closer towards publication. The procrastinator and
perfectionist in me really wants to delay the inevitable but in my
heart I know I’ve done as much as I can or am willing
to do for this novel and it’s time to release it into the world. The
insecure writer in me wants to keep it as close to my chest for as long
as possible so that I don’t have to deal with marketing, the publication
process and the inevitable unflattering reviews.
In a way I think I might have even been sabotaging myself by being
super picky about the cover even though the third version of it was
perfect yet I asked for so many tweaks the poor designers had to send me
through multiple additional drafts.(kudos to the team at Deranged Doctor Design for putting up with me!)
I think this is in itself a sign
that I’m ready and that I’m just creating ways to stop myself from
publishing. So, considering this is something I’ve been working towards
for the last four years, I have decided that I need
to be brave and just publish. Though it’s super scary and I’m very
insecure about the novel’s reception I have decided that I am going to
just close my eyes and hit publish. Oh and if anyone is interested here is the cover:
